"I'll guard the house while you go act like a tart this weekend mom"

said right before cat fell off bannister due to flash and rolled down the stairs!!

Disclaimer : No animals were harmed during the making of this movie. In fact, he soon forgot he was acting injured when a moth dared to fly into his line of vision.

Was it good for you?

* smokes imaginary cigarette *

I have had enough of trying to keep my thoughts on three seperate blogs.

I am having a threesome and merging them.

I will still respect those that don't want to read the ultra extreme stuff and keep those on select friends only posts.

(btw ... if you have recently fell into my spiderweb and didn't know about that ... just let me know if you want to read them and I may (or may not ) let you ) Although to be fair there hasn't been an 'extreme' one for a few weeks now. To me 'extreme' is classifed in the blog sense by my discussing the actual finer details of sex. i.e. He thrust his ** into my **** and then I ...... etc .... *shut up Abi*

It may take me a minute or three and I think I have come up with a plan for keeping comments.

* scurries off to cyberspace to pack her bags in her other two homes *

EDITED TO ADD : Whew ... ok, moved the diet blog over. The BDSM one is gonna take a wee bit o'time as I am bringing comments too.

Not the motorway.

I am going to Kent tonight to spend the weekend *gasp* with M3.

Who is M3? Keep up will you.

I chatted with M1 last night and gently steered the conversation to the fact that no matter how wonderfully extreme he is that it would never work with us. It would end up being purely about sex and pain. I then paused to gauge his reaction. He agreed with me but then hinted that as I was quite unquestionably the most extreme he has 'played' with that he would like to at least leave that avenue open.

Seems I have a new fuck buddy.

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Juzzzy pro
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2007-06-28 @ 10:06

Disgraceful.

Erm.

Etc.

x

Abilene pro
2007-06-28 @ 10:12

Did you expect anything different from me?

Juzzzy pro
http://juzzzy.blog.co.uk
2007-06-28 @ 10:26

Of course not.

PrincessFiona [Member]
2007-06-28 @ 10:57

Options Options!!!! seems like you do!!

I have one fuck buddy and we have our own set of kinks

Looks like I shall be going to jail. Ho Hum.

Sec.64
Possession of extreme pornographic images

(1)It is an offence for a person to be in possession of an extreme pornographic image.

(2)An “extreme pornographic image” is an image which is both—

(a) pornographic, and
(b) an extreme image.

(3)An image is “pornographic” if it appears to have been produced solely or principally for the purpose of sexual arousal.

Seriously though. This is rather scary.

Should this bill pass I could go to jail under those classifications based on pictures I have on my computer of myself!!

Quite equally scary is the fact that I could also be placed on a sex offenders listing!!

Who has the final say on what is 'extreme'?

Afterall, I may not find it extreme.

Your thoughts?

I want to share something deeply intimate and passionate.

For me this is an endless list of paradoxes, limits will be pushed.

I want to be owned to be free, bound to please, spanked and spanked, obedient, helpless, crawl, hair pulled, petted, whipped, flogged, stroked, used, abused, punished, loved, pinched, slapped, protected, disciplined, caned, conquered, kissed, tamed, touched, hurt, soothed, trained, exposed, vulnerable, loved, humilited, cherished, degraded, and adored.

Do not judge me, for these are my deep-seated needs not yours.

I will answer questions though

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EnamelSlide pro
2007-05-27 @ 23:51

Next you'll be asking for the moon on a stick

I can a relate to a few of those, but i cant cope with serious pain lol

So are you looking for someone that loves you completley, yet can make you suffer? Kind of between those boundaries? Or do you just want to be 'used and abused' by anyone?

Abilene pro
2007-05-27 @ 23:58

A stick? Yes please.

I do not wish to be with just anybody in this respect (or any other actually).

For someone to get to this level with me they have to be able to get into my mind which is why 'just anybody' would not work. Thank God I do have my 'friend' for the times when I get so tightly wound and can't think straight for the need for total release.

I don't feel, in fact I know that I could ever have a totally 'vanilla' relationship again. I would not be able to supress these needs and it would be unfair to us both.

As for pain. I admit to being a total pain slut. I am a masochist who is continually finding new levels of pain that I didn't know I could tolerate let alone enjoy.

EnamelSlide pro
2007-05-28 @ 00:03

So say for example, you meet a guy and you know hes into BDSM, do you start off little by litte? While you're getting to know each other?

And when you meet a guy and you have no idea if hes into it, do you start off with the vanilla vibe and gradually introduce some spice or even latex?

Abilene pro
2007-05-28 @ 00:18

Hmmmmmm. Good questions and please understand these are just my answers and not a written in stone way to do things.

Disclaimer over with.

Part I: If I meet someone and we both know that we are inclined the same way it doesn't matter. This is not about pure sex and pain for me so it still goes through the normal steps that relationships always have for me. Getting to know each other etc. Afterall it doesn't matter how good (or bad depending on how you look at it) the sex is, we still have to be able to interact outside the bedroom per se. Yes it is nice though to know that should we get along in all other respects that when we get to that stage we are on the same page. It also helps that during the getting to know each other stage we are able to discuss limts and safe words etc etc.

Part II: Meeting a guy that I know nothing of his likes nor he of mine. Hmmmmmmm. More and more lately that is not happening. Not entirely sure why, not a conscious choice. However to answer the question I would not take too long to have the 'what kinds of things do you like to do' discussion as it can only lead to anger and frustration if you are both on totally different pages. Would be terrible to invest a lot of time and emotions into someone and then find out they only like the missionary position and would never bind me. Wouldn't be fair to them either.

EnamelSlide pro
2007-05-28 @ 00:22

thanks for your answers. I find it all very interesting

Im going to hit the hay, g'night Abi x

Memee [Member]
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2007-06-05 @ 14:43

I think the steps toward or away from any relationship are essentially the same. Human beans need someone who is 'on the same page' so to speak. I agree Abi!

K.

subville pro
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2007-05-27 @ 23:56

I like extremes, contradictions, paradoxes too, but only the ones that don't sting

Deffo won't judge you, it's a personal thing. It's only ever offensive if it's not consensual in some way, at some point, when people get abused when they don't want to.

I used to have a recurring dream where I was treated like crap then given more respect bit by bit, and one where ... oh crap I'm not saying that

TheMusingsOfAMenopausalMama pro
http://theachaprinciple.blog.ca
2007-05-28 @ 00:51

I am proud of you girl for putting pen to paper and blogging your deep-seated desires. It takes a lot of courage. Bless.

I hate that word.

I am sure that it is meant to be nice and possibly flattering.

When I hear that word I hear "You fat cow .. that's the nicest I could say without being a bitch"

I have lost 6lbs and then pigged out yesterday. No willpower.

Think I may resort to brain zapping diet pills.

Any suggestion? (on pills that is)

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dieingtobethin [Member]
2007-06-27 @ 11:45

speed

MagicalMysteryTour [Member]
2007-06-27 @ 18:56

lol *tut tut*

God knows what you'd jabber on blog if you took that!!!

dieingtobethin [Member]
2007-06-28 @ 10:07

she'd probally talk about as much shit as i do

Abilene pro
2007-06-28 @ 10:10

Oi !!!

I'll have you know I would be the picture of calmness !!!

PrincessFiona [Member]
2007-06-27 @ 11:46

yes lets together invent a pill for will power because i can never stop my eating habit!!
I not near the fat cow stage but its a future possibility

I tried to loose(yoga,gym health food) and guess what i lost? Money and 1 Kilo thats it

ajnspencer pro
2007-06-27 @ 11:50

Doh, I use curvy...

essexboy [Member]
2007-06-27 @ 11:52

Yes, curvy can be a euphimism, but when I think curvy I think sexy. Size zero sucks.

Keep off the pills, they'll fuck you up in the end.

Helly101 pro
2007-06-27 @ 12:18

I get called curvy all the time by The G-Ster - I don't find it insulting at all. It's nice to feel appreciated for having a womanly and not boyish figure finally! (I used to be incredibly thin lol)

rowtheboat [Member]
http://rowtheboat.blog.co.uk/
2007-06-27 @ 12:32

I like being called curvy.

It's much better than "Pirate's Dreeam" (sunken treasure) or "Carpenter's Dream" (flat as a board), which is what I was called as a teenager by my lovely male friends... until I hit 18 and suddenly obtained a pair of melons.

rowtheboat [Member]
http://rowtheboat.blog.co.uk/
2007-06-27 @ 12:33

Re pills, my mum used some herbal ones a couple of years ago - think they were called Trimmers.

denzil85 pro
2007-06-27 @ 12:57

I'm another guy who uses curvy, as I also think sexy when I hear it!

Wugamumftaga [Member]
2007-06-27 @ 13:06

"curvy" preceded by "No offence but..." They could say the nicest possible thing after "No offence but..." and I would take offence on principle. "Curvy" definitely in the thesaurus next to "fat pig" (sorry an inadvertent change of farmyard animal)

AlexConde [Member]
2007-06-27 @ 16:08

I obtained my black belt in karate not too long ago, and I have to say that it was a lesson in self appreciation (bear with me on my story - it won't be too long-winded).

I was in some of the best shape of my life, but I weighed more than ever. I'd packed on a lot of muscle and not really dropped any fat. The thing is, with the muscle on, I felt really damn attractive. If you have trouble with the losing weight angle, how are you at gaining muscle?

nicolasconfessions pro
2007-06-27 @ 16:48

do NOT take diet pills...they are the short term fix but they will fuck you over in the end...keep to the diet and exercise, losing weight is a long process but you will get there eventually! trust me!

Mrs_F [Member]
2007-06-27 @ 21:24

When I am fat it is not the same as being curvy I have been fat for about 2 years before that I was curvy. Curvy is sexy and that is what I would like to get back to being. BUT eating ice cream and drinking cocktails and eating crips is not helping.

As far as I recall from when we met I would put you in the category of curvy rather than fat unless you have also been eating loads of ice cream and junk food since I last saw you of course.

X

TheMusingsOfAMenopausalMama pro
http://theachaprinciple.blog.ca
2007-06-27 @ 23:46

I am sensitive to my body image as well. I have been a size 2 and size 22 and everything in between. I am presently a size 10 and hated the way I looked no matter what size I was. Still hate how I look

Is it wrong that I am jealous of these people?

Don't go spouting all the 'do good' health jargon. I am aware of all that.

I am jealous of their dedication to a goal.

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ajnspencer pro
2007-06-26 @ 14:41

But too many people have a dedication to a goal they actually don't need to reach, in fact in many cases shouldn't reach.

I think it's better to understand that there's something that in your heart you want to do to make yourself happier in yourself but it's not a matter of life or death, celebrate the success and berate yourself a bit if you don't do it but not to let it rule your life.

But then I'm a fat bastard and don't care so I may not be the best person to comment...

Helly101 pro
2007-06-26 @ 14:46

I don't really think it's healthy to feel jealous of their dedication to a goal which will ultimately injure them if they continue.

Abilene pro
2007-06-26 @ 14:48

I know. I wish I could explain it. I don't want to die. I don't want them to die.

Helly101 pro
2007-06-26 @ 15:04

Oh, I know, I wouldn't have thought that for a second x

But it really is a mental issue, an illness - not something to be desired....x

ladee-bird pro
2007-06-26 @ 14:54

Yes it is VERY wrong....

Eating disorders aren't a lifestyle choice or just simply dedication to a goal they are mental illnesses, addictions....

Abilene pro
2007-06-26 @ 15:04

Hun, I know that.

However, we can't always control our emotions and jealousy is an emotion regardless.

AlexConde [Member]
2007-06-26 @ 15:31

Actually, there was a great study in which they proved there was a genetic basis for anorexia at least (I don't think they dealt with Bulemia).

One of the puzzles of Anorexia is that the lack of food is accompanied by a boost of energy. Putting that in terms of a hunter-gatherer social model, it makes a LOT of sense. Mothers who can give up food for their children and still have energy to do what they need to do would definitely be in a position of evolutionary advantage.

I understand your point, that the dedication to something like that can be impressive, and even something to be jealous of (of the dedication, not the anorexia), but in the case of anorexics it's not all dedication, there are some genetic components that make things easier for them. So, it might not be that they know what they want and are dedicated to a goal (albeit an unhealthy one) any more than the rest of us.

PrincessFiona [Member]
2007-06-26 @ 15:51

it does make one feel if they can go thin so can we!!

But i love food and i cant think of not eating

Old-Nick pro
2007-06-26 @ 15:53

What death?

Abilene pro
2007-06-26 @ 16:26

No Nick, that is not what I meant and you know it.

electrochick [Member]
2007-06-26 @ 16:00

dedicaton to a goal, or addiction?

I'd go for the addiction anyway if it got me where I wanted!

Perhaps not bulimia though.

EnamelSlide pro
2007-06-27 @ 07:07

I know what you Abi. I wish i could be so dedicated to loosing weight Sometimes i used to wish i could be an anoriexic, fucked up hey?

I just enjoy eating to fucking much...its my heroin

It has been pointed out to me (in many different forms) that only people at the lower end of the social scale would be involved in the things that I like and other such depravities.

Afterall, the ones you read about in The Sun are of the stereotypical scum mentality so therefore myself and my dates must be scum also.

There is a reason for this my dear cynics.

There are a lot who have much to lose should they be 'outed' which is why they don't go running for daytime television.

It has also been pointed out to me that I will most definately be denied entry into ICAEW (which is required for me at some stage by my company) should I continue along my chosen path of both discovery and frankness about said discovery.

So maybe this explains to you why so few of the 'white collar' society are willing to reveal their true nature.

For example I have over the last few months been slowly (and not so slowly) getting to know four individual men. None of whom will anytime in the near future reveal who they are to the world at large.

M1 ~ (Of shower and suspension fame) Is rather prominent in his field as a scientist.

J ~ (Not yet introduced here) Is an engineer overseeing mutibillion pound projects in London.

M2 ~ (Briefly mentioned here) Is a CEO of a high profile international company.

M3 ~ (Also not yet introduced here) Is a lawyer for the Crown Prosecution Service.

Now while this makes me look like I am a snob in my choice of dates (I am not - remember the toothbrushless bartender from Leeds?) I think this illustrates that those who share the same taste as I do are not neccesarily the scum of society.

I guess the question that now begs answering is ... will I continue to be so open about myself and my journey while risking my future career with this company (and possibly others)?

Probably

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essexboy [Member]
2007-06-26 @ 14:10

The careers of the four individuals is absolutely no surprise to me whatsoever. Apart from the fact that none of them are MPs

Abilene pro
2007-06-26 @ 14:24

Not sure what you are trying to say there Essex.

Hmmmm I think most consider MP's scum aswell.

So, your point?

essexboy [Member]
2007-06-26 @ 14:32

OK, what I'm trying to say is that, no, I don't think that only scum and the lower end of the social scale would partake in the stuff that you like. And I most certainly wouldn't judge you because of it.

Get your point about the MPs, though.

boredrich [Member]
2007-06-26 @ 14:21

typical dont let them get to you its not worth it just do it and enjoy it you only live once so live it to the full and do what you want to do not what someone else or society tells you to do!

Abilene pro
2007-06-26 @ 14:23

You gonna pay my stupidly outfuckingrageous mortage then?

boredrich [Member]
2007-06-26 @ 14:28

**| might give that a miss

Abilene pro
2007-06-26 @ 14:31

Exactly.

It is easy for people (this is not aimed at you in particular) to say 'oh go for it' etc when they are not the one with a risk to take.

Juzzzy pro
http://juzzzy.blog.co.uk
2007-06-26 @ 14:44

I won't say 'go for it' because it's crass.

I will say 'be you', though, because that's not.

And 'you' is fun. So carry on.

x

PrincessFiona [Member]
2007-06-26 @ 15:33

Not surprised we al have something we hide... I'dsay be careful thats all

classicrockchick pro
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2007-06-26 @ 16:11

We give up a lot for our careers. I had to tone my image down the higher up the nursing ranks I got.

I guess you have to weigh-up how much you want your career, and how much you want to be 'out'.

Be very very secretive, and enjoy.

I think you're right about people assuming that only scum partake of these activities. These people have less to lose if others know about it! Everyone else keeps quite

TheMusingsOfAMenopausalMama pro
http://theachaprinciple.blog.ca
2007-06-26 @ 16:39

It's a damn shame when consenting adults are judged by their behavior in their personal life that is conducted behind closed doors.

What has that got to do with their professional life?

xxxxx

Vort1gern pro
2007-06-27 @ 11:14

Bill Hicks: "What business of yours is it what I take into my body, watch, see or do, so long as it harms not *one* other living soul on the planet?

"*None* of your fucking business. Take that, cash it and go on a vacation out of my life!"

One has to agree. As for the Sun readers, the only reason it still exists is the prurient hypocritical 'outrage' it feigns whilst peddling titillating smut to the masses (who themselves condemn such perversions of course, whilst devouring every snippet like an addict honks crack).

"Disgusting Lesbian Antics" said one headline in 40-point bold, with an in-depth description and teaser photos. If people grew out of this Victorian delusion of morality, it would be broke in a week.

faffajane pro
http://faffajane.blog.co.uk/
2007-06-27 @ 17:33

I have found that most people who condem things that they see as 'unftting' whether this be BDSM, prostitution or voyeurs are usually people in positions of power!

ok so occasionally you may have someone that doesn't have a highly paid job, that joins in as well

Everyon lives their lives differently and no one should be made to feel that what they are doing, if it is consentual, is depravity.

lyndlj pro
2007-06-28 @ 10:55

There is far worse goes on in society than what you and like minded people do.

What gos on in private between consenting adults should be of no one elses business.

Sienna [Member]
2007-06-28 @ 10:59

I agree totally. I also think that nasty journalism stems from a jealousy of the flashy lives of the high society by working-class people trapped in a humdrum existence.
Get off your high horse, it's a donkey!

An 'acrostic' poem is structured so that the first letter from each line forms a word. The poem will ideally be connected to that word.

Here is one I have written just for my stalker. Slimeball that you are.

Stalker

Slowly following
Taking his time
Aware of my routine
Losing my mind
Keeping his distance
In the shadows he stays
Never showing his face
Going slowly insane

Well, just a quickie while I wait for work emails to transfer.

Went to Kent. Had a strangely good time.

Watched a cricket match today for the first time and actually enjoyed it.

Got home to find that friend who was feeding cats forgot to leave my keys for me and had gone to Devon.

Locked out of house until 11pm.

Thank God for baby brothers and spare keys.

I have just deleted from my friends list those that have not been active for 6 weeks or more.

I am now leaving for the weekend. Will be flitting from Kent to London to Hemel Hempstead.

Found out that I am meeting with newly discovered sister in Bedford. Where in the F is that? lol.

Have a good weekend y'all.

My apologies now if anyone takes offense to this. It is not exactly graphic in nature but it does step on toes. However please bear in mind that if you judge me from one piece and think you know me because of it, then you are more judgemental than I could have imagined.

* * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * *

Disrespecting the Man in Front of Me.

My heels click across the stone floor. Is it disrespectful us being here? I am trying so hard to walk on my tip toes as I feel the stares of those already seated. You lead me to a seat, enjoying my discomfort as I gently sit on the hard bench.

I find it hard to believe we are here. The man in front looks at what I am wearing and seems to disapprove. As the orchestra starts to flow around me I feel myself being pulled by the music. I feel your hand draped behind me, touching my back through the flimsy cotton dress. I am internally jerked away from you as the music vibrates through my very soul yet I am pulled back by your presence so close.

I shift in my seat and wince at the stinging pain between my legs. I smile at the memory of how you took me with such delicious violence a few hours before. I feel myself sway as if on a ship in a storm. I feel the man in front of me staring at me, hating me. I close my eyes and sink into the sounds that are echoing all around us. Your hand then softly rests on my thigh and it is like electricity shooting into the very core of me.

I briefly wonder if those around me know what I was doing just a few hours ago? That man in front of me, does he know? Can he tell I screamed? Can he imagine the pain and the fear of not feeling that pain? Is it disrespectful that you brought me in here without letting me take a shower?

As the music gets louder so my breathing gets faster. I feel it so deep inside me. The violins are taking me into the air with them. The drums are beating in time with my heart, getting harder and harder. That man in front of me seems to frown as he hears my breathing. Is it disrespectful that as these angels are singing your nails are digging into my now exposed thigh?

Slowly, agonisingly slowly, the music comes to an end. I feel myself returning to you. I wonder still if it is disrespectful us being here. I know that man in front of me despises me and all that I am. I feel that my body is screaming ‘I am a whore’ and all those around me can hear it. I have brought my filth and depravity into their sanctity.

As you take my hand I feel your quiet strength and I am reassured that I can walk tall. As I stand and take one last look at that man in front of me, the man who is on that crucifix high on the wall, I feel your seed running down my inner thigh. You pull me with you and I smile as I hear my heels clicking on the stone floor.

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Mrs_F [Member]
2007-06-22 @ 15:30

x

AlexConde [Member]
2007-06-22 @ 15:47

I love it. Brilliantly written!

lyndlj pro
2007-06-22 @ 15:58

I dont see why whoever reads this should judge, you have stated clearly enough what this blog is for.

There again I am not religous, so I dont have that mind set.

As said above, beautifully written.

TheMusingsOfAMenopausalMama pro
http://theachaprinciple.blog.ca
2007-06-22 @ 16:16

*puts protective arms around Abi*

Sweetheart, if I had written this story, I would not have apologized or made the remark about stepping on toes simply because it is my blog, my post and if people don't like the post, then they can turn the fricking channel.

How many other people would be sitting in the pews having beat the shit out of their wife, children, husbands, screwed around on their partners, break the laws each and every day..blah, blah, blah...you get my point.

Hubby always sezs that the Church makes a point of accepting each and everybody despite the clothes they are wearing for wouldn't they be hypocrites if they did not. (You would love to listen to him and his open-minded views)

Bet that man in front, fricking judging you, shoulda had a mirror propped in front of his face to see all the things he is guilty of...

You did nothing wrong...the clothes you are wearing when you were there (who cares what you wear?), the seed trickling down your leg (mind the floor and don't trip on the wet spot)...

I am gonna be a Catholic as you know and I can tell you that I look around each and every Sunday and wonder just how many hypocrites there are sitting in the pews, oh ya those righteous assholes who truly think that they are living Christian lives when in fact they are not. Its all the other days of the week that matter and how they conduct themselves.

I am glad you enjoyed the music.

Btw, wanna go to Mass on the Sunday morning in the UK?

PS. I have worn my pyjamas when I am in church (Midnight mass at Christmas and at the Easter Vigil). Mind, the leather coat from Florence mighta distracted them.

Luffs you and kudos to you for sharing and being brave enough to post this.

Abilene pro
2007-06-22 @ 16:23

Erm Sis ...calm down.

You do realise that 'The Man in Front' was/is Christ on the cross right?

lol.

Read slower.

TheMusingsOfAMenopausalMama pro
http://theachaprinciple.blog.ca
2007-06-22 @ 16:58

Yup. I knew. Still doesn't change anything I said. If Christ is truly all people claim him to be, then the very fact that you were in church should be all the mattered.

And, I can't help being protective and feisty about you...have no idea why..I am passionate about people I love,...and behave the same way about them as well...

TheMusingsOfAMenopausalMama pro
http://theachaprinciple.blog.ca
2007-06-22 @ 17:02

and another thing, *crikey, I do carry on; a swat right between the eyes will take me out or a glass of wine will distract me*

You may believe you were disrespecting the man on the cross but I think not.

sheesh...I am a pistol aren't I?

xxx

AlexConde [Member]
2007-06-25 @ 19:58

Sorry to jump in, but having been raised Catholic, there's a great viewpoint I can offer on this. One of my religion teachers (yes I took religion classes in school) told us "It's ironic that everyone assumes they can judge in the name of Jesus when he was a guy who hung out with beggars and prostitutes" (I hope said teacher will forgive the paraphrasing).

I think Meno had it right. How's that saying from the Bible go? Judge not lest ye be judged? As much as I'm non-practicing, I like to think that a church living up to it's own ideals would welcome you no matter what the circumstances.

(just my 2 cents)

faffajane pro
http://faffajane.blog.co.uk/
2007-06-22 @ 16:26

Hun that is beautiful!

Do not apologise, it is your blog, and in all honesty, working in a church school, they are the biggest hypocrites around (not meno I hasten to add )

hugs xx

PrincessFiona [Member]
2007-06-22 @ 17:01

This is Amazing Abi!! You have me totaly awestruck and gaspin for more(no pun intended)
xx

Fi

littlemissaverage [Member]
2007-06-22 @ 17:40

Lovely piece of writing. x

danr2210 [Member]
http://danr2210.blog.uk
2007-06-22 @ 17:52

Very very good.

And anyway, he had a good flogging and did not complain too much.

Maybe you have more in common than you think.

suzeemoon [Member]
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2007-06-22 @ 22:19

Gorgeous writing. I'm a non-Christian ex-Catholic, but if you go back to what's written, the Man on the Cross wasn't as obsessed over sex as some of his followers. The sexual rules came from elsewhere.

Lindow pro
2007-06-23 @ 07:13

Hi Abi, an interesting read. As everyone above says, beautifully written. Not too sure how I feel about the content. All too far removed from anything I've ever experienced. I'm wondering if I should say more. It's tricky. All your friends have, rightly, been supportive but (there's always a but) is that really what you wanted? I'm thinking not. Well, not automatically anyway. Shoot, I'm getting confused. Okay. I defend and support your right to write whatever you want. Now I'll shut up. James.

jaketaylor pro
2007-06-23 @ 11:13

brilliant and big up to you for writing it- I agree with all Meno said too - you went into there with your head held up, not many in there can in reality.... they are mostly suppressed and repressed emotions boiling up inside their hypocritical lives!

(i'm not the religious type)

EnamelSlide pro
2007-06-23 @ 15:07

You must have got a slight kick out of it, i would have

rowtheboat [Member]
http://rowtheboat.blog.co.uk/
2007-06-27 @ 12:55

That's a great post medear.

x

This was taken in February. A repost.

EDIT: THIS WAS MOVED FROM ANOTHER BLOG. ALL REPLIES FROM THERE ARE COPIED BELOW.

Old-Nick pro
2007-06-22 @ 14:26

I don't remember seeing that.

How much to see all of it then?

PrincessFiona [Member]
2007-06-22 @ 15:11

interesting piece of prop!

TheMusingsOfAMenopausalMama pro
http://theachaprinciple.blog.ca
2007-06-22 @ 16:00

And yer toenails match too! I remember this...I could so use that shiny silver thing to ram up someone's arse. *kidding* But it does look like fun.

Abilene pro
2007-06-22 @ 16:02

That's a picture for another day.

* gasp *

TheMusingsOfAMenopausalMama pro
http://theachaprinciple.blog.ca
2007-06-22 @ 16:20

*sniggers*

Due to the resident smart asses I did have three entries in the spoof pictures.

AJ and Steve P tied for 1st and poor CJ was just not as ugly I guess

* mwah *

That was soooooo much fun.

Thanks to everyone that submitted a picture and also a huge thanks to the 72 ..yes SEVENTY-TWO .. people who voted.

Y'all rock and y'all are what makes this place the community that it is.

So without further ado ... the results (only 1st, 2nd and 3rd)

In 3rd place all the way from Kangarooville was the ever sexy Flickers !!!!

On top of her in 2nd place was the little blond cutie Mad Dogs !!!!(Is that a skirt you are wearing in the picture by the way? )

and finally

as always with his pants around his ankles I give to you your winner
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Thanks to AJ for the picture (leave it on your screen for a second so you can see it's animation)

Hope y'all enjoyed this.

... my three blogs.

I knew this would happen.

I don't like having three seperate ones.

Yet they are all about things that are me.

How do I do it? Can I merge them or do I need to take each entry and transfer it over? If I do that ... do the comments come with it?

Help.

... absolutely fucking horrifies me.

Now, maybe those that say I do not need to lose weight can see what I see. Do you see the roll of fat under the bra? The flabby arms? The fat and dimpled thighs? The fat calves? The big as a whale ass?

Ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

EDITED : THIS WAS MOVED FROM ANOTHER BLOG. ALL REPLIES FROM THERE ARE COPIED BELOW.

gstzas [Member]
2007-06-22 @ 10:17

Hey, its all in the eyes of the beholder, anyway, could do with a chat?

boredrich [Member]
2007-06-22 @ 10:17

hey if it was a picture of me you wouldnt see the sides of the mirror

Old-Nick pro
2007-06-22 @ 10:27

I love the fact you had to stand on something to get yourself all in!

I stand by my earlier statement.
x

Abilene pro
2007-06-22 @ 11:12

??

I'm not standing on anything.

Old-Nick pro
2007-06-22 @ 11:30

oops! looks like you have your left foot on a black box. Didn't look closly at your right one. Sorry.

Was looking at other, erm, bits.

I will be getting my coat then eh?
x

Abilene pro
2007-06-22 @ 11:34

lol. That's my front door mat.

Yes, I was standing dressed like that in front of my glass panelled front door !!

subville pro
http://subville.blog.co.uk/
2007-06-22 @ 10:29

It is in the eyes of the beholder.

A diet? Or a change of perspective?

I know, I know, but you look fab, Abi xxx

ajnspencer pro
2007-06-22 @ 10:43

Is it worrying I looked at that picture and thought... I had that phone...

I will personally say that I wont stop you trying to lose weight, we have to be happy with who we are.

Having said that I'll sheep the rest of the people and point out I think you look great as you are.

PrincessFiona [Member]
2007-06-22 @ 10:53

hmm throw full length mirrors out just keep tiny ones for makeup

rowtheboat [Member]
http://rowtheboat.blog.co.uk/
2007-06-22 @ 10:55

Personally, I reckon it's not a weight losing diet you should consider, but a fitness thing. You've gorgeously curvy and it would be a shame to lose that - but if you do the tightening up through exercise thing, you get to be all smoothly-curvey whilst eating whatever you want, best of both worlds

Please do note that the person doling out this advice has not done anything that could be considered exercise - save hurling herself around dance floors and having sex (not at the same time) - for well over a year...

Abilene pro
2007-06-22 @ 11:13

You are partly right ... but I still need to shed 50lbs.

faffajane pro
http://faffajane.blog.co.uk/
2007-06-22 @ 11:11

You look fabulous hun, wish I only looked half as good!

Hubby has just seen this over my shoulder and thinks you look fantastic - Trust me you look great

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2007-06-22 @ 13:57
i think you 'vr got a cracking figure mrs x

mayisaysomething [Visitor]

2007-06-22 @ 14:09
Taking regularly pictures of yourself, and making sort of 'before and after' series, I mean if you'll do it long enough, you'll notice, say, in some five or ten years, when you'll get a bit more... 'mature' *looks around affraid to use the word 'older'*, HOW BEAUTIFULL you were in June 2007. Enjoy the present day and present shape dear. I would not concentrate so much on losing weight, may be just try keeping your present lovely feminine shape (forget exercise, just eat less*, and drink only/*ok, mostly* water, lots of it). You are a girl in her best years (says a male-evaluator looking over my shoulder), and yes, you look as attractive as a girl in her best years usually does.

*'eat less' means about a half of what you usually eat - for quick results, otherwise... just decide yourself what amount to reduce from your usual 'intake'...

littlemissaverage [Member]
2007-06-22 @ 17:44

you look perfectly fine to me

there's no way I'd post a pic of my flabby arse on here!!!

ladee-bird pro
2007-06-27 @ 11:03

Oh my god i've just noticed how much weight you want to lose - 4 stone bloody hell girl if you lose 4 stone they'll be nothing bloody left of you!

Are you ready for this ?

Are you sure ?

Ok, don't say you weren't warned.

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just kidding but it got you in here.

Now please, please, please get your vote in as it ends in 3 hours.

Awwww c'mon ... you know you didn't really want to see me naked.

Cutest Blog Baby.

Where the F did the monsoon outside come from?

I left the house this morning in sunglasses sans coat and brolly.

Fuck.

Believe it or not I do work.

.... have been the following.

2 cups of tea.

4 litres of flavored water.

Small tub of coleslaw (yum yum)

Small serving of spicy chicken.

4 laxative chocolates.

In other news. Played with the pics from Birmingham. All I did was cut out the background. It was only 3 weeks ago but why do I feel like I am so much fatter in the face in person than the picture shows?

EDITED: THIS WAS MOVED FROM ANOTHER BLOG. ALL REPLIES FROM THERE ARE COPIED BELOW.

steve_p [Member]
2007-06-21 @ 15:36

good to see you are not abusing having Photoshop installed on the work PC

Abilene pro
2007-06-21 @ 15:55

I am so responsible.

I just can't figure out why in the hell they decided I needed photoshop. Hardly like I am gonna use it to make tax returns pretty !!!

Old-Nick pro
2007-06-21 @ 15:50

You look happy in that picture.
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Abilene pro
2007-06-21 @ 15:54

You took it

rowtheboat [Member]
http://rowtheboat.blog.co.uk/
2007-06-21 @ 16:11

Call that sustenance? You're worse than Juzzzy!

x

Abilene pro
2007-06-21 @ 16:31

Hmmmm might be a plan then cos he sure as hell has no fat on him.

RGray1981 pro
2007-06-22 @ 06:31

I would suggest a bit more in the fruit/veg department, Abi. And Michael would suggest a bit of lean meat, but this is dependant upon whether or not you are a meat eater. Fruit and veg and proteins.

And laxative chocolates? Is that truly needed, my dear?

Ryan

Abilene pro
2007-06-22 @ 08:46

I ate some sliced meat last night and a banana (not together).

Laxatives are something you will not be able to talk me out of I am afraid.

x

faffajane pro
http://faffajane.blog.co.uk/
2007-06-22 @ 11:13

You are very pretty

It's upside down as I took it myself.

So I guess that means it says Evigrof.

* shrugs shoulders *

Edit to add : Don't forget voting ends tomorrow VOTE NOW

Hi there

Now, without trying to sound all naggy and annoying can I just voice something?

Well, I'm gonna anyway.

If someone posts something as friends only and you are included in that post please be respectful.

See the trust that was shown and honour it. Do not then repeat what was said to anyone else ... probably best to not even discuss with others on the friends list as you have no clue who else was shown the post.

Am I making sense?

Don't ask, I have my reasons.

Ok, this is way past due as I promised certain people I would cover this some time back.

Safe Call

When I feel comfortable enough with someone to arrange an actual meeting there are some things I insist on knowing first. I need an actual landline number (which I call to verify). This usually weeds out the married guys as they obviously don't want wifey to find out. Also having a landline number means that you (or the police) can trace it to an address.

I will NEVER meet someone at their home or in a private place. Always in a pub, restaurant, coffee shop etc. If they want to meet me somewhere private etc then they are not the man for me as this is not about a quick fuck for me.

Once I get to the place we are meeting I call a friend (who knows the situation) to let them know I arrived safe. I also let them know a time that I will call back to check in (usually in about an hour or so). If I do not call and check in the safe call person tries to contact me. If unsuccessful they have my full permission and encouragement to call the police and let them know ALL details. I also call them to let them know I got home safe as well at the end of the 'date'. Any man I meet with who has issues with any of this NEVER gets a second date. A Dom who is genuine will actually make sure you remember to do all this. My safety is paramount and he is aware of this.

I usually do safe calls for at least the first 3 dates with a guy. When finally meeting him in a more private setting I always insist that he lets me walk around his entire house (or hotel suite) to make sure there are no hidden cameras running blah blah.

Am I over cautious? Maybe. Do I care? No. I am alive and am pretty fucking happy to stay that way.

I know this does not guarantee that I won't meet a psycho but it certainly gives me more peace of mind. After all if things go well this man will have me in a situation where he really could do anything with me ... and not always good stuff so it is better to try as much as possible to eliminate certain people. In fact I think I am more cautious and safe than some girl who hooks up with a guy at the pub on Saturday night and takes him back to her place. Now THAT is insane and unsafe.

Which reminds me ... for the person who PM'd me to ask what SSC means.

Safe, Sane and Consensual.

Questions?

EDIT: THIS WAS MOVED FROM ANOTHER BLOG. ALL REPLIES FROM THERE ARE COPIED BELOW.

subville pro
http://subville.blog.co.uk/
2007-06-21 @ 11:54

I'd never thought of these things till you mentioned it a few weeks ago on blog. Makes sense to me

You're so right about the Saturday night thing too *jeez* I've never done that thing, sleeping with a guy you know nothing about???? And the safety aspect scary

xx

TheMusingsOfAMenopausalMama pro
http://theachaprinciple.blog.ca
2007-06-21 @ 14:41

Oh I believe you to be a good judge of character and could weed out the arseholes quickly. What I mean is that you would have a sixth sense about what is right and what is wrong and you would go with your gut feeling.

Abi, when I come to see you, I would love to see some of your gear - the neck chain thingy or whatever you call it simply out of curiosity and my fascination to learn about everything.

Years ago, a dear friend took me to a store in downtown Toronto that was definitely a BDSM store as I look back on it and I was truly amazed at the variety of outfits, whips and so on. Gob-smacked I was...

suzeemoon [Member]
http://suzeemoon.friendpages.com/
2007-06-21 @ 19:35

Excellent post. When I was single I left info on car reg and phone no with friend as well as details of where I was going. I think men should also take similar precautions in case of set-up.

RGray1981 pro
2007-06-22 @ 06:46

Abi, I would love to make a connection between your blog and mine. You have a lot of wisdom to impart and from a slightly different vantage point to mine. Mightn't you consider allowing me to share a link to your blog with others in my circle? Naturally, feel free to answer either way.

I heartily agree with what you're saying here. I know that my situation is different as my Dominant is always the same person, nonetheless I can appreciate your good sense in securing your safety through cautiousness and forward planning. Well done!

Abilene pro
2007-06-22 @ 08:48

Ryan, I am flattered and of course you can share me. (That does not sound right )

Yes, taking care of my safety is number one priority at this stage. Should I eventually be blessed (?) enough to find that one then my safety is then his concern.

rowtheboat [Member]
http://rowtheboat.blog.co.uk/
2007-06-22 @ 14:33

Glad - although not surprised, from what I've got to know of you - that you take such precautions. Excitement, trepidation and a certain level of pain are one thing; real fear and mistrust are completely another.

faffajane pro
http://faffajane.blog.co.uk/
2007-06-22 @ 14:54

I only wish more people would take so much care when meeting people for the first time, whether male or female, especially on that hook up on a Saturday night.

I think you are very sensible, as for over cautious, no, you are safe, that is the most paramount thing, one can never be over cautious.

Hugs x

Sienna [Member]
2007-06-28 @ 11:56

Very interesting, it shows how much you respect yourself (and your pleasure).
xx