Direct quote of an email just received.

"Dear Xxxxx (Abi ... Duh)

Please tell your friend from Beatleland that it was great. I cannot even begin to explain to you how it feels to skydive – it’s sheer exhilaration and extraordinarily cold! It was utterly brilliant and I definitely intend to do it again, although I will be waiting for a warmer day. I paid for a cameraman to jump with me so there are a few select piccies attached of my experience to give you some idea of what it was like. It is without a doubt the most mad thing in the world to do and surprisingly unscary, just very, very, very enjoyable.

Heather"

Here is one of the pics.

Remember the nice date I had last week.

The journalist.

London, outdoor table, red wine, good converstaion blah de blah.

He just now sends a text after over a week.

Hmmmm.

Too late me thinks.

Probation over early.

Not let go even though I broke the law. Bite me.

Tra la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la

Erm ...do any of you even remember what I am talking about?

Reminder

Tra la la la la la la la la la la la la de fucking la la

Someone so needs to make sure to buy me a celebratory drink tomorrow night now.

I have never met this man.

I have read much of his work and it touches me in ways that can't be described.

I read some more that he personally sent me last night and was physically moved to tears. About what? A description of a night at the opera of all things.

I am telling you this man has power and deserves all recognition he gets.

We shall see if that power extends from his words to his eyes.

Can he draw me in the same in person as he has done with the written word? Can he make me hurt the way my inner being needs?

Possibly.

So I have a feeling Mondays post may be interesting and that's not counting my quick trip up to Birmingham to meet up with some of y'all. No doubt it will be previously acknowledged 'Select Friends Only' so don't panic about reading smut that you don't wish to. ( Oh and I have cancelled one of the planned dates for this weekend out of fairness ).

EDIT: THIS HAS BEEN MOVED FROM ANOTHER BLOG. ALL REPLIES FROM THERE ARE COPIED BELOW.

Juzzzy pro
http://juzzzy.blog.co.uk
2007-05-31 @ 13:56

Cor. Ruddy. Blimey. Guv'Nor.

Abilene pro
2007-05-31 @ 14:02

Exactly.

Racing breath and tummy flips when I think of what he may have the potential to do to me. Hopefully the picture on the dust cover is not of someone else. My bluddy luck and all that.

Old-Nick pro
2007-05-31 @ 13:58

Ah right, so your off to survey a potential new "friend" Good luck with that. Hope he is all you want.

I'll see you in the pub. Phone me on the day to let me know your eta?
x

Abilene pro
2007-05-31 @ 14:01

Actually, no, Nick.

I would never go meet someone new (no matter how much I am drawn to them) late at night after a few drinks.

Even I am safer than that.

Old-Nick pro
2007-05-31 @ 14:10

Bugger! its because you cant find somewhere to stay right!

Oh poo!

jackdaw [Member]
2007-05-31 @ 14:05

To be moved by words alone is a gift very few can achieve, however, if you have read some of his work before, you are already on his knife edge, already captivated by the essence of what he writes.

His description of the opera, if reading his work as a first-timer, may not be as spellbinding even if well written.

I can only hope he lives up to your expectations, and your encounter is a pleasurable one for your "inner sanctum"

Jack x x

Abilene pro
2007-05-31 @ 14:23

You are so correct Jack, I may already be on the knife edge but for me to cry is no small feat. I do not cry, even in moments of extreme pain.

It seems I only cry at death and then it's usually out of anger.

Well only time and time and time will reveal the full extent that this may travel as a quick 'fix' is not the answer for this one that already touches me so.

jackdaw [Member]
2007-05-31 @ 14:47

To cry is only an action caused by reaction.

If extreme pain, whether by words or action, is a pleasure, then to cry is an act of joy and not an act of weakness or submission.

Quick fixes are definitaly not the answer, as all they do is leave you hollow and empty.

Go for it!!!!!

Jack x x

flickflack pro
2007-05-31 @ 14:09

I'll keep my fingers crossed for ya, Abi x

Abilene pro
2007-05-31 @ 14:24

I, for my part, shall be keeping my legs crossed.

Really. No, stop laughing, I will.

flickflack pro
2007-05-31 @ 14:32

Shan't bother logging in on Monday then. I'll find summat else to do. Maybe writhe around on a pile of new books.

Abilene pro
2007-05-31 @ 15:51

Tease.

Reply to comment | Back to post | Edit

..... Cutty Sark arsonist spotted !!!!!!!

It wasn't me I promise !!!!

Guess what's on my desk?

Aside from work that is.

No really.

Guess.

Let's see just how well you know me and what would excite me at work.

Edit : Scroll Down ... Flickers knows me well it seems.

I knew this would happen.

Having two blogs on here is already causing me worry lines. lol.

Obviously there is some stuff that will get more and more extreme which is why I have the other blog. However not everything to do with my journey is graphic yet I feel it should still be over there for continuity. Having said that maybe I want to mention here that I have two dates this weekend. What if something funny but non graphical (is that a word?) happens do I post here or there.

Then I think maybe of combining the two together and just staying with the plan of only allowing viewing to the extreme posts by those that want it.

Yet I kind of like having that other room. Ughhhh.

On another note.

Anyone feel like decorating for me. I am shit at blog design and I want mine vamped to reflect me and my personality. The only thing I like about the two are the colors. I am very much a black, gray and red girl.

Any offers to help. Course it means giving my password to someone so they can do it. Can passwords be changed after wards maybe?

So I have two dates this weekend.

They are both with guys I have met through the BDSM community.

Funny thing is you would think that it makes the date different.

It doesn't.

Still meet in a safe public place.

Dinner, maybe drinks, conversation.

It's no different than any other first date.

Except there is that undercurrent there.

You both know.

You know he wants to control you.

He knows you may not let him.

After all submission is not something that is inspired by every guy I meet. In fact by very few.

So in effect at this tender stage the submissive actually has all the control.

I say who. I say when.

Rest assured though that once I have said who and when that the control is no longer mine.

EDIT:THIS HAS BEEN MOVED FROM ANOTHER BLOG. ALL REPLIES FROM THERE ARE COPIED BELOW.

rithompson [Member]
http://random-veryrandom.blog.co.uk
2007-05-30 @ 13:44

Erm....What's BDSM?

Abilene pro
2007-05-30 @ 13:53

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/BDSM

One thing to remember is that BDSM is a very wide ranging subject. To like one thing does not mean you will like another.

I am the M part of this basic description with a very strong need for the B & D part.

rithompson [Member]
http://random-veryrandom.blog.co.uk
2007-05-30 @ 13:55

Ooh. Very interesting!

jackdaw [Member]
2007-05-30 @ 13:45

SO IS IT JUST AN ILLUSION THAT YOU ARE IN CONTROL AT ANY STAGE? YOU NEED IT, HE WANTS IT!
ITS ALL AN ILLUSION IF YOU THINK YOU DECIDE WHO AND WHEN AS YOU KNOW, YOUR DESIRES WILL DECIDE FOR YOU!!

NOT TOO HEAVY I HOPE

Jack x x

Abilene pro
2007-05-30 @ 13:50

Erm ... no need to shout.

Not heavy at all.

Yes, desires are a huge factor. Yet even when desiring someone there may be something about them that does not inspire control over me. My ex for example was sexy as hell and I had all kinds of sexual desire for him but would have laughed if he had tried any of the darker things.

Remember one thing Jac, everyone is different and what may apply to one (situation) may not apply to another. Life is grand ain't it?

Abi x

rowtheboat [Member]
http://rowtheboat.blog.co.uk/
2007-05-30 @ 13:52

You know, it's kind of interesting that you're a submissive, yet your avatar looks decidedly dominatrix. Why d'ya think that is?

Abilene pro
2007-05-30 @ 14:16

You are not the first to mention that. lol.

Maybe I want someone to take the whip out of my hands?

*shrugs shoulders*

Don't go getting all freudian on me Row or I am not getting drunk with you.

Also please understand that being a submissive does not mean weak. Just as a Dominant is not a bully. I am very much in control of my life etc but there is nothing more pleasing (to me) than to be able to take off the power suit and hand the control over to another. In a sense.

rowtheboat [Member]
http://rowtheboat.blog.co.uk/
2007-05-30 @ 15:26

*boots Freud out of the window and picks up a wine glass*

Ready!

jackdaw [Member]
2007-05-30 @ 14:16

Just to check as RTB has said are you completly submisive without reservation or do you prefer to dominate, or is it dependant upon the individual you are with.

Jack x x

Abilene pro
2007-05-30 @ 14:33

I do think at this stage I am completely sexually submissive (with the right person). That is not to say over time it would not change but right now that is where I am at and am quite content with that.

Being sexually submissive does not mean just laying there like an ironing board though

rowtheboat [Member]
http://rowtheboat.blog.co.uk/
2007-05-30 @ 15:26

BOL

AmericanDomme [Member]
2007-05-30 @ 15:36

Abilene,

This is why female subs are so tempting. Female subs will show up to their dates. Something quite the opposite happens with the male submissive psyche, which leads to the never ending cycle of "no shows."

Most perplexing.

Have a lovely time on your dates.

Abilene pro
2007-05-30 @ 16:26

Thank You, I hope I have a lovely time too.

I wonder if maybe the problem with what you say about male subs is that there is such a stigma in todays society that men be men (i.e. in charge, wear the pants, beating the chest type psyche) that they are still struggling with their internal demons on that front and maybe are not yet ready to sexually take it anywhere. Although as we all know the first step is the hardest but you need to take it to get anywhere.

Having said that though it may not even be anything to do with the D/s aspect. After all there are plenty of 'vanilla' guys and girls who do not show up for dates. Also there have been dates that I wish I hadn't shown up for It may just be a case of bad manners, social awareness etc.

*Abi stop rambling*

p.s. It is nice to chat to another American ..at least you know what I mean when I say 'pants'

AmericanDomme [Member]
2007-05-30 @ 17:27

"p.s. It is nice to chat to another American ..at least you know what I mean when I say 'pants'"

Ha! YES!

I think there are a lot of varying reasons of why this happens with submissive men. And yes, I do agree, it happens with people in general. However, I would say that 9 times out of 10, submissive men prefer to live this lifestyle in their heads and are kidding themselves otherwise. And maybe that is due to the heavy stigma and misperception of what it means to be a submissive man. However, that is, and has been my personal experience.

And lastly, I can forgive a healthy fear. What I will not entertain--Bad manners. It's one thing to be a "no show", but a "no show" without an apology and explanation...Buh-bye!

Cheers!

Boss: Abi would you like to go home?

Me: Excuse me? *If you touch me I will stab you with this pencil*

Boss: Maybe go and clear your head?

Me: Excuse me? *I have more intelligence in my finger than you do your whole family ... go away*

Boss: Well you seem a little distracted today.

Me: Excuse me? *well, it's certainly not your good looks that's doing it now is it, Shrek*

Boss: Is something wrong?

Me: Excuse me? *yes, your blithering is delaying my wine lunch*

Boss: You just told Mrs Xxxx "Oh well at least the rain is easing up" when she said she is filing for divorce.

Me: Excuse me !!!!!!!! *shoot me now*

Edited to add : Maybe I should point out the fees from this client to HMRC are in excess of 6 figures each year. So needless to say she is a rather prominent client. Oh well, maybe I can handle the financial side of her divorce settlement. * rolls eyes *

Whispers today please.

Thank you for yesterday evening.

Sorry I fell apart last night.

Thanks for helping me catch it this time.

Y'all know who you are.

Doesn't happen often but when it does it's a freefall.

Safe Sane and Consensual.

It is not safe to be drunk or under any influence for that matter when submitting to another.

It is certainly not sane to do so.

Consensual. Probably not. Not really.

So I place the phone back down and do not make a call.

EDIT: I HAVE MOVED THIS FROM ANOTHER BLOG. ALL REPLIES FROM THERE ARE COPIED BELOW.

rowtheboat [Member]
http://rowtheboat.blog.co.uk/
2007-05-29 @ 21:42

Sometimes physical release just isn't what you really need.

A difficult day. Here's to tomorrow *clink*

KerBear [Member]
2007-05-29 @ 22:31

x

Mrs_F [Member]
2007-05-30 @ 00:23

Hug
X

TheMusingsOfAMenopausalMama pro
http://theachaprinciple.blog.ca
2007-05-30 @ 00:37

Good move sweetheart. Hugs

timsuzi pro
2007-06-10 @ 08:04

Are you in a particular mood when you need pain as a release? Is it linked to sadness, frustration, anger or is it when you are feeling more up? Are you aroused in the same way that you would be sexually or is it a different arousal? Are there times when you know that only pain and submission will hit the spot (sorry awful pun!)

Very much understand your point in another post that submissives are not therefore weak and controllable in the rest of their lives but just need this escape fom having to be in charge.

timsuzi xx

It has been two years since Bobby put a gun in his mouth and thereby put his brains all over the kitchen wall behind him.

It has been two years since a broken hearted 13 year old spat in my face. Well, she would have done had the jail glass not got in the way.

It has been two years since I started to torment myself with things I handled bad.

It has been two years since my heart died.

Stay dead you bastard.

You too heart.

No, I am not posting on the wrong blog.

For a firm that is not a lowly ranked firm in the country you would think they would stock a better brand of wine in the kitchen for 'certain' employees in their time of need.

Not sure what it is but it is not great.

Drinkable still though.

Apparently.

Edited to add : Apparently I have no fucking idea about taste because the wine that is offending me is a good one. Bonneau du Martray Corton Charlemagne. Whatever. Guess that's back to Vodka for me then.

*wonders now how much the damn things costs so she can get it replaced - My hypocrisy only goes so far as Doc Holiday said*

For some reason I was following links and found myself at this by our own resident numpty Juzzzy that he wrote in December or rather had us cointribute to.

Has kind of put a downer on me as I read my part of it and I remembered some things I had just started to bury.

Think I need to go drink. It seems to dull things. So I hear.

Bye all.

Just received the following (with obligatory boring article that I shall spare you from ) in my email box.

"Too Much Work Can Pack on the Pounds"

"Overtime May Add More to Your Waistline than Your Wallet"

Erm ...no ...it would be my inability to put the fucking food down that makes me gain weight.

However I shall be forwarding said article to my HR deprtment to let them know it is in the interests of my health that I not work overtime.

Wait.

I don't. Thank God.

hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha

ha.

Just a quickie. I maybe wasn't clear (as is often the case with me) about how you can read my secondary blog.

I am getting messages from people asking why they can't see it when they are on my friends list.

Reason is that I am respectful of some on my friends list not wishing to share in that part of me so you have to let me know if you DO wish to have access. Either on here or in P.M. but until I hear from you I will NOT assume you want to read it. Also please do not assume that I will give access to any and all that ask. I am sure you understand but if you are new to me then I would rather wait a bit as I am dealing with enough stuff already from lurkers. lol.

I shall post this on both blogs to hopefully cover my bases. (Typical damn yank eh)

I have so far today ....

..managed to not slap snotty girl in admin.

..managed to make the entire audit department a cup of tea without one person asking me "What do you want?" You would think I am only nice when there is a job needing rushing.

..managed to engage in two mini online conversations with object of a crush and not make one single sexual inuendo.

Think this calls for a celebratory toast don't you?

Sorry it took so long for me to get it posted. Just now remembered.

I would obviously have it somewhere discreet as are seven of my nine others ..lol.

EDITED: I HAVE MOVED THIS FROM ANOTHER BLOG. ALL REPLIES FROM THERE ARE COPIED BELOW.

EnamelSlide pro
2007-05-29 @ 09:43

Im guessing tatoo?

Vort1gern pro
2007-05-29 @ 09:51

Nice. You sticking with the colours or having B&W?

Abilene pro
2007-05-29 @ 10:07

Toughie cos I think black ink looks great if done well, but I do like the blood red of the roses.

Also not sure where to put it.

Vort1gern pro
2007-05-29 @ 11:21

Yeah - You need a nice, sharp detail on B&W but then it doesn't fade as fast as some of the colours do.

Can you get a transfer of the design done? That way you can get a non-permanant trial to test out in various locations.

TheMusingsOfAMenopausalMama pro
http://theachaprinciple.blog.ca
2007-05-29 @ 15:48

I think this would look lovely on your bum or your shoulder.

* brinnnnng brinnnnng * (shurrup that's the best I got for a phone)

Me: Good Morning, Ace Accountants, can I help you?

Caller: Oh hey Abi How are you today

Me: Fine and you?

Caller: Great.

Silence

Me: So, how can I help you today?

Caller: Oh I'm fine. Anyway, have a good day. Bye.

Me: Erm .... ok .... are you sure I can't help you? Hello?

Dial tone kicks in.

* Ding * That's the penny dropping btw.

The caller called me Abi ... erm ... that's not my real name.

You see someone doing something online that may be behind their 'partners' back.

You know that the 'partner' and family have put alot of time into this person.

Yet you do not know any involved on a personal level. You have great respect for them (the ones not doing something wrong) but as I said you don't really know them.

Do you take a risk and send an email or do you keep your mouth shut and wait for a possible train wreck?

God I hate being cryptic but I have my reasons. I know some of you may even think I am talking about you but fear not. This is not as obvious as it seems.

Edited to add: To the three people sending me texts and emails. Stop being paranoid (although you have now highlighted to me that you are obviously misbehaving ) FFS. x.

Someone asked me how I know I have found 'the one'. Hard question to answer as I am single so obviously I haven't.

However here are my personal thoughts .....

I think the main thing is at least having a framework to build on.

In BDSM there are so many different angles which is fantastic for the variety but too much variety can cause barriers when trying to find 'the one'.

Afterall what is normal to one may be obscene to another.

Take me for example I am a masochist. I derive great pleasure from pain. I derive even greater pleasure taking that suffering from someone who is enjoying it as much as I and not just perfroming a playact.

Wouldn't it be awful if I should get involved with someone who said they enjoy inflicting pain only to find that their kink only extends to binding and occasional spanking.

Not that I am knocking that but it would be a shame for both involved as both would not be getting what they need. Having said all that though ... none of it matters if you do not connect on all levels.

For me this is about a jigsaw puzzle. All the pieces have to fit to get the picture. So really it is no different than any other relationship ... right?

I am rambling.

EDIT: THIS IS MOVED FROM ANOTHER BLOG. ALL REPLIES FROM THERE ARE COPIED BELOW.

EnamelSlide pro
2007-05-28 @ 21:39

I think finding the one who ticks all the boxes is like the search for the holy grail sometimes Just so happens one of your boxes appears to be hard to come by.

I've always imagined that there would be a fair share of men would be into the sadist thing, but i suppose thats just my own little assumption

Abilene pro
2007-05-28 @ 22:09

Yes but even within the BDSM arena there are so many diverse interests. Its like now I found the needle in the haystack I have to try and thread the thing blindfolded.

lol.

However I do find that the extremes of my journey are what keep me on my toes per se.

EnamelSlide pro
2007-05-28 @ 22:12

Dont they forums/websites/dating places where you can find like minded peoples?

Abilene pro
2007-05-29 @ 00:03

Yes hun and I am a member ... an active member. I am just voicing thoughts based on a question. I have no doubt with patience I will find the one but in the meantime its one hell of a ride.

rowtheboat [Member]
http://rowtheboat.blog.co.uk/
2007-05-28 @ 21:49

You're right - the struggle for compatibility in a relationship is one that everyone has. And how far to compromise.

Good luck with it medear x

TheMusingsOfAMenopausalMama pro
http://theachaprinciple.blog.ca
2007-05-29 @ 00:58

Abi, I believe that the one for you and you for him/her will embrace every little bit of you and be willing to explore your interests as you will be willing to explore their interests simply because it is important to the one you love.

Abilene pro
2007-05-29 @ 09:29

Oh you are absolutely right and I have all the tim ein the world on this one.

Just trying to bring to light a little that just because a person has "kinks" it does in no way mean they will automatically be compatible with someone else's "kinks"

Also in my opinion ..it's only kinky the first time.

TheMusingsOfAMenopausalMama pro
http://theachaprinciple.blog.ca
2007-05-29 @ 11:55

I have no idea why I am so protective of you but I am and here I go again with saying that just because you like some things that others may not doesn't mean you have kinks and they don't.
To each their own I say and just because you like BDSM doesn't mean that you are not kind, sweet, loyal and genuine. I mean it too.

Abilene pro
2007-05-29 @ 12:08

I love how protective of me you are. I really do. Not many are (no, that is NOT a sympathy attempt lol) so when it is someone such as yourself who loves and cares for for no ulterior motive it really means a lot.

Enough of that shit.

TheMusingsOfAMenopausalMama pro
http://theachaprinciple.blog.ca
2007-05-29 @ 13:24

hugs and kisses darling...and enough of that shit

maddogsandenglishmen pro
2007-05-29 @ 11:09

the right person will come along..and when they do, it'll be so obvious, and you'll both bend a little to make any bits that dont quite join up match perfectly. you'll see

(can you tell I'm in love? )

Abilene pro
2007-05-29 @ 11:18

Have I come across sounding as if I am DESPERATELY looking? I hope not. Yes, I am keeping my eyes open but I have actually settled in a calm place where I am ok with discovering more about me before finding 'Him'. Then though the real journey begins where hoipefully he is mentally strong enough to help me discover even more about me.

lyndlj pro
2007-06-07 @ 22:24

Rambling is my job, get your own.

You will know when you get there, the connection, meanwhile, well life is for living isn't it.

I have a place elsewhere that I am very explicit about certain aspects of my life. I want to bring the two more in line from an ease of use aspect (mine) which is why I am just going to host both here for now.

However I don't think it is something everyone on here wants or needs to read. I shall for the most part be making all posts 'friends only' but even then only to a select few.

Please let me know if you wish to have access. I will NOT be offended if you do not wish to read. Please bear in mind saying you want to read does not mean I will grant it. I am not in any way trying sound condescending with this but when I say "explicit about certain aspects of my life" I do not joke.

EDITED : I HAVE MOVED THIS FROM ANOTHER BLOG. ALL RELIES FROM THERE ARE COPIED BELOW.

FunkyFarmer pro
2007-05-27 @ 17:57

Hiya,
I think this is a time you need to invite people you trust to read your very personal stuff rather than have people opt in.

Anyway what do I know? LOL I'm only a wrinkly old farmer.

Abilene pro
2007-05-27 @ 17:59

I do see what you are saying which is why I said that asking does not guarantee. I just dont want to do invites and run the risk that certain people may feel obligated to accept. This way it is as the title of the post says "Your Choice".

FunkyFarmer pro
2007-05-27 @ 18:05

OK I will let you off this once

EnamelSlide pro
2007-05-27 @ 18:00

i'd be interested to hear what you have to say, but i wont be offended if you think not!

Abilene pro
2007-05-27 @ 20:36

Done.

EnamelSlide pro
2007-05-27 @ 20:43

Thanx

Might learn a trick or two, or even share some

Abilene pro
2007-05-27 @ 20:58

Deal.

sminchin pro
2007-05-27 @ 18:01

You're educating me

Abilene pro
2007-05-27 @ 20:36

You may not want 'this' education. Done

sminchin pro
2007-05-27 @ 20:41

*shrug*

I don't have to read it

ladee-bird pro
2007-05-27 @ 18:28

Oooooh i'd love to read whatever it is that you choose to write here purely because i'm so goddamn nosey

Joking aside i LOVE reading blogs of peoples lives they're the ones i like the most

Abilene pro
2007-05-27 @ 18:56

uhmmm sweetie ..are you sure you want to read?

Tell ya what - I will add you to the posts but please let me know if it's too much. As I said up there ^^^^^ I will not be offended.

subville pro
http://subville.blog.co.uk/
2007-05-27 @ 19:12

Count me in, if you wish

Abilene pro
2007-05-27 @ 20:37

In my dear.

TheMusingsOfAMenopausalMama pro
http://theachaprinciple.blog.ca
2007-05-27 @ 19:45

yes please.

Abilene pro
2007-05-27 @ 20:38

Ahhhh but of course.

hi sis.

TheMusingsOfAMenopausalMama pro
http://theachaprinciple.blog.ca
2007-05-28 @ 01:40

Thank you my lovely sis. I will be honored to have you share this side of you. I recognize that it is deeply personal and intense and I am flattered you are willing to share. Hugs and kisses my sis

maddogsandenglishmen pro
2007-05-27 @ 19:53

I'm game.

Abilene pro
2007-05-27 @ 20:42

As if there was any doubt.

Sorry about calling you Friday *blush*.

Your damn name is one away from the gentleman you are about to read about. So imagine why I was somewhat frustrated when I got you and not him. No offense. lol.

maddogsandenglishmen pro
2007-05-27 @ 20:45

heheheh its fine, I was cracking up - and no offence taken whatsoever

lonemum [Member]
2007-05-27 @ 21:49

but do you mean ruuuuuuuuuuuuuude or about personal or difficult stuff not necessarilly ruuuuuuuuuuuuuude? but anyway....I am interested but if its ruuuuuuuuuuuuuuuude not probably....as am a bit prudey lol!!! All the best with it anyway! your blogs are always very interesting you have a good way of putting stuff. whatever!

Abilene pro
2007-05-27 @ 22:31

Yes, I am afraid some would consider it rude which is why I chose to go about it this way. I love that those on my friends list are a widly diverse group and am totally accepting that there are things about me that they don't all need to know.

The 'normal' personal, annoying and silly stuff will still go on my regular 'do i care' blog.

lonemum [Member]
2007-05-27 @ 22:48

I am fine with rude but not with graphic details...what do you think? I am bloody curious but dont know!!!!lol xx

lonemum [Member]
2007-05-27 @ 23:02

guess what I'm thinking is I'm up for supporting you but not just to be a voyeur....that is what I'm thinking...yes that is the one...do you see what I mean? xx

Abilene pro
2007-05-27 @ 23:16

No, I totally understand. It is about my journey in the BDSM lifestyle and why it is pulling me in. Namely as a submissive female ...something I would never have thought I was.

Yes it probably will get rather graphic at times. So I think I would just rather you be my friend on 'do i care'. I think that will be best for both of us as I would be mortified if you ever read something I wrote that offended you.

Love to you as always :hugs:

lonemum [Member]
2007-05-27 @ 23:23

lol.....bless you! you gotta do what you feel comfortable with...and my dithering about prolly says it all!! All the best with it.....big hugs back!! xxxxx

moltsplace pro
2007-05-27 @ 22:33

I'd like to see if allowed

Abilene pro
2007-05-27 @ 22:43

Ok M.

timekillingkid [Member]
2007-05-28 @ 00:01

*pulls up comfortable chair*

Game if you are.

Abilene pro
2007-05-28 @ 00:21

Oh shit.

* stomps off to check TKK's name on the posts *

This is where you no longer want me to meet your mom.

flickflack pro
2007-05-28 @ 05:11

You'll not make me blush, missus. Count me in.

Abilene pro
2007-05-28 @ 11:19

It's not the blushing I am concerned about .... it's the offense level. lol

TheMusingsOfAMenopausalMama pro
http://theachaprinciple.blog.ca
2007-05-28 @ 23:50

Abi, this is quite lovely that you wish to share a deeply personal and intimate side of you and have thought to ask if your friends would want to be included in your descriptions of BDSM and your journeys within but a question for you - how could something you do offend me especially when what you do has nothing to do with me? Just a thought...I would never be offended by what you do

steve_p [Member]
2007-05-28 @ 11:13

I am intrigued because I am nosey

Abilene pro
2007-05-28 @ 11:20

You, young man, have been warned.

rowtheboat [Member]
http://rowtheboat.blog.co.uk/
2007-05-28 @ 17:28

Go for it medear x

Sapphire_Night pro
2007-05-28 @ 17:30

Sounds interesting although like Ladee B I am also just nosey!

Lindow pro
2007-05-28 @ 17:40

Okay. I've thought about this deeply for all of two seconds and if you promise not to take offence I'll opt out. I'm totally for consenting adults doing whatever they like but graphic's not really what I'm looking for when I blog. Call me vanilla, if you must, but I'll stick with 'do I care'. James.

Abilene pro
2007-05-28 @ 18:34

Your honesty and thoughts are exactly why I have handled it this way. It is not graphic as in hard porn but obviously with choosing to write about the BDSM side of me things may get a little more than some can or want to deal with.

I mean the term 'vanilla' in no negative way btw.

Abi x

lyndlj pro
2007-05-28 @ 18:10

I dont need to think deeply, to me you are a lovely person, and that is sincerity not flattery. I count you amongst my 'real' friends, you wont offend me, I have probably read worse

Knowing all about what makes you tick is important to knowing you. If that makes any sense at all x

Abilene pro
2007-05-28 @ 18:35

* hugs *

cathead [Member]
2007-05-29 @ 22:15

My middle name is "open-minded"
Fire away Abilene, I'm totally unshockable, except of course where politicians' hypocritical audacity is concerned.

davidjohn pro
2007-06-20 @ 13:15

I dont know anything and it seems have never lived. Please give me an education ! davidjohn

Dear God, I can't sleep. No that's not a prayer ... just a statement.

Watching Laura Dern and Nicholas Cage. Strangely sexy.

Who all is going to B'ham next weekend. *puts hand in the air*

Just a little advice.

Check who you have highlighted on your phone before you hit the little green button.

Nothing worse than getting one person when you wanted another.

Any other time I would have happily chatted away but I was on a mission.

Sorry Chuckie.

Tagged by Flicks and Avarilo,

Here goes..

Each person tagged gives 7 random facts about themselves. Those tagged need to write in their blogs the 7 facts, as well as the rules of the game. You need to tag seven others and list their names on your blog. You have to leave those you plan on tagging a note in their comments so they know that they have been tagged and to read your blog.”

1. I have a fear of elevators
2. I don't enjoy 'vanilla' sex or relationships.
3. Raw egg makes me gag
4. I finally understand who I am
5. I once kissed a relative ... with tongue (to be fair though I didn't know we were related)
6. I prefer to have aquaintances instead of friends.
7. I really don't like stuff like this

I tag no-one due to the fact that it seems everyone has already been tagged and as much as I love a repeater I don't feel like being one in this case.

I had my head buried in work sneaking a drink like the good little alcoholic worker bee that I am .

I hear voices in my head coming down the hallway.

One of them cackles laughs the dirtiest laugh ever.

My head pops up.

Subsy !!!!

Nope but damned if it didn't take me back.

No, that does NOT mean I am giving up a fuck.

It means I go and try all this cutsy little things that y'all are doing but then I can't post em. Cos I must be a dumb ass.

Anyway.

My pirate name is Skull Crushing Busty Wench.

Go fucking figure.

SING IT GIRLS!!!!!!